I feel unable to speak freely about myself due to blockades in my head. I try to understand where those blockades come from and explore my struggled childhood and relationship with my father. due to his history being kurdish and from a family that had very many problems and had to flee Turkey end of the 80s, I feel this is one of the reasons why my growing up was in the shadows of his problems.
In my performance „ohne Worte“ I speak freely about things, I can’t speak out normally.

With the help of a controlled burst of harsh noise, I give myself the opportunity to speak out things I normally can’t while people in the room won’t be able to hear it. It is a self censoring to protect myself, give myself freedom, but still stand in the sonic blockade of not being able to tell the truth to anyone.
The performance is accompanied by a pile of big speakers behind a fence, yet another layer of presenting blockades, which you could overcome, but still is there.